The beginning of something new each time.
Whenever we come to an ending, there are usually two ways of going about it. You hate the other gender for a while or you have that need for it to come back. Sometimes we try so hard to find someone. Not only because we want to move on fast and find that happiness again but, we want to feel needed.
After countless heartbreaks, we lay on the floor, wondering where it all went wrong again. We try to look back at what all we did, even if we didn’t do anything at all. It’s like getting that text message saying “we need to talk,” and we try to find any possible thing that could’ve been worth mentioning. We start thinking how we don’t want that pain of a broken heart again, but something always changes. We start to think about how it was all worth it.
Love comes at the most random times. It’s when we get up off that floor and stop feeling sorry for ourselves. What is a life spent in sorrow? What is a life that is constantly trying to fix what already happened? The best thing we can do is stop screaming into that pillow and just step outside.
We will find happiness someday. Whether it is in the arms of another or a passion we haven’t even discovered yet. It’s not trying to fix something that’s already broken, because we are broken. There is nothing that can just erase the scars or that memory that’s buried in the back of our head. It’s finding something that is worth a try. Because believe me when I say, life gives you so many reasons to try again.
The day I focused on myself, I fell in love again. I fell in love with my state of mind. I tried new things, I spent time with some old friends, and I adventured. Then, I found someone that wanted to join my adventure. Someone that was always there, that knew who I was and who I was trying to be.
Whenever I heard, “Stop trying to force yourself to love, they will come whenever they are suppose to,” I never believed them. It was that chance that I had to be willing to take, and I did. Now I’m off the floor and have opened my heart to endless possibilities.
He challenges me, he supports me, he loves me. He is the one that I hear in the back of my head whenever I am about to make a decision or when I am upset, I can count on his name to pop up on my phone. He gave me a reason to look at the world with a new set of eyes and try to create something that is more than myself.
He is amazing. He is someone that I aspire to be or at least have by my side when I figure me out. So when I say, he is needed when he’s not. It means I know that I can do life on my own but, gave me a reason to not want to. I love who I am and I only intend to grow in the world but, he makes me better.
He was COMPLETELY worth the wait.